we are... i am.... - post 31

in what seems a lifetime ago, i was sitting on a couch w/ the 20 y/o (#2) right when we were starting to figure out what was going on w/ us. we took turns telling each other issues in our lives that preceded us starting to see each other. when we each said what we had to she made a small, single, humourless laugh and said:

"god, we are two of the most fucked up people in the world."

ages ago... back sometime in february... yet today, i found myself looking at myself, my life, where i am, where i might go. like her, without humour, i smiled to myself and realized something - she was right (if nothing else, at least, about me).