19 August 2011

fuck.me. - post 54

listening to a bit of Ke$ha's Take It Off and watching My Boys

of the women i've dated, i've told 2 that i love them. at present, both of them are pissed at me / hate me to some degree as a result of ---- my relationship with the other one. fan.fucking.tastic.

i still love my princess. she's in town for a few days & i offered to buy her a drink. but she apparently "doesn't have the time" and is still upset with me.... i have no idea what i can do to mend the fences between us.

i'm trying out some intertube dating site. apparently 1:3 messages are not replied to. i'm working on a 10.5:11 (the .5 is from the girl who replied a couple of times then just stopped) not responded to ratio. chix are, apparently, not very into me. this is clearly suboptimal.

07 August 2011

for lack of a better name - post 53

listening to some Deadmau5 - Moar Ghosts & Stuff

i've been laying around all day trying to completely turn off the way that my amazing little princess taught me. most of today's been spent on the couch watching 3 discs of Planet Earth (the BBC version narrated by Sir David Attenborough), finishing a book i've been reading for the past week or so and making a solid dent into Deadline (book 2 of newsflesh by Mira Grant) and i meandered out to Caribou to enjoy some chocolaty beverages and sit in a comfy leather chair while reading and taking in a little change in scenery.

i miss my princess... she's moved away for grad school, as i knew she was going to be. our nights of sitting around chatting at the bar over a few drinks, weekends spent cuddling on the couch or cooking for her, her soft kisses ~ all things i don't know how i'm managing to get by without.

just before she left, i told her that i love her. she freaked out a bit at that. i figured she would, but i still had to tell her. i love her and don't want to be with out her.... we've chatted a few times since she left, but i wish she were closer and was available for cuddles.

there's a girl in the class i'm taking over summer. the 1st class, i looked at her at least 1/2 dozen times b/c how she had a remarkable similarity in appearance to my princess other than the fact that she was blonde and had so much gorgeous ink. we chatted a couple of times. last week i asked her if we could get a drink... she initially said sure & asked where. i suggested st. james, since i'd been hanging out there pretty regularly. i gave her my card & number. a few hours later, she emailed me and said that she had a b/f. what the fuck?? it could've been hot and kinda fun - but i would have thought of my princess pretty regularly. maybe it's better that it didn't work out.

princess: i miss you & i love you.