fucking hell... - post 73

i don't know.  

where am i going to start tonight?

still can't sleep normally.  lonely.  becoming incredibly annoyed w/ girls that i can't figure out if they have any desire to actually date me or not.  and, legit, if i hear one more girl say "you're a really great guy and what i'm looking for - i just can't be in a relationship right now", i may have to choke a bitch (it's a figure of speech, calm the fuck down).

let's start w/ munchkin:  i messaged her today (monday) "would you like to get together for dinner this week? i was thinking hubbard grill or betty's - something along those lines"  about 3hrs later, she replies "sure.  i have a few things still up in the air for this week, can i get back to you w a good day?"  of course my response was "that's fine.  whatever's good for you"  we'll see if i get any kind of reply and what comes of that.  i'm not sure that she's seeing anything as being potentially viable.  if we go out, we'll see what we see.

the violinist:  we're supposed to be getting together on thursday.  *sigh*  this date has been so long in the works that i'm not sure we're holding each others' interest (or she's just really THAT busy).  i don't know which it is...

the writer: introduced in the beginning of post 71 and i have had some more in depth conversations and spent some time chatting online.  as usual, sex came up.  i had to assuage her fears that i'm not going to misconstrue that as meaning that we're going to have sex.  CASUAL SEX!


i've also messaged a few other girls, none of which have followed up with me.  perhaps at some point i'll hear back from one or two of them... maybe even a few more dates.  maybe even a date or two w/ someone that actually wants to date seriously.


i lowered myself to returning back to the original site that i had no success on previously.  in that context, i've only been searching for 19-22y/o women looking for "intimate encounters"...  granted, i'm still completely incapable of separating sex and emotion, but at this point, fuck it.  i just want a plaything to achieve the >120mos younger than me portion of challenge 2012.