not sure i'm feeling it - post 89

guh... i guess we'll start things off after leap day.

i was right about pikachu's lack of interest.  friday, i asked her if she was free this weekend (i was planning on pretty much, flat out, saying "look, i can't even tell if you like me - is there anything here?"). and she replied:

I can tomorrow, however, I just want to be clear that its [sic] as friends.  I enjoy hanging out w/you & if this changes you wanting to meet Sat., I understand.

since it was out there, i immediately came back with:

Actually, that's what I was hoping to clarify...  If you want me to keep you in mind for some of the events & general goings-on in the city, I'm fine with just hanging out occasionally (the overwhelming majority of my friends are women) but right now - I'm definitely trying to find someone to date.

she said that she'd like hanging out and we left things open from there.


also on friday, i had a lunch time tea with the bi girl.  *sigh*  she seems like she's interesting and decent to talk to, but idk that i find her sufficiently attractive to really want to pursue things.  we're getting together tonight for drinks.  based on her responses to a lot of questions on her intertube dating profile, i get the feeling that she's dtf & looking for some kind of sexual relationship.  she also stated in those questions that she's probably going to be looking for an open relationship and the ability to see / sleep with others as well.  both of those are issues for me.  


i know that i told a^4 that i'd consider giving her leeway in terms of her inability to be in an exclusive relationship - but i could've seen us in something serious beyond that.  but, since i'm not even mostly sure on this, that's an issue.  also, i'm back to my questioning of my ability to have casual-sex centered relations.  maybe a one-nighter to nail my >120mos younger challenge-prize, but i just don't know how i might react to sex w/ someone i don't really care about.  is it better to sleep w/ someone just b/c i'm lonely & it's available or just keep holding off until i meet someone who measures up to all of my standards?