at this point, even a "fuck you" would be nice...
i haven't even seen a rejection letter in weeks. at least with one of those, you get to live in the delusion that someone took the time to at least look at your application / materials and tell you that you're not what they're looking for - it's better than being ignored.
two new women have been messaged on the intertoob dating site. i don't think i'll hear back from either, despite the one being a 95% match. not that it matters. after all, i don't need the rejection from both the job market and the female market.
speaking of rejection: i haven't heard from munchkin since the 12th. princess ignored my email to see how she's doing. athena (still) will not answer any of my 'couple times a year' emails (even the most recent one inviting her to a fiona apple concert on her birthday).
my job search has been tabled the past two weeks and, in all likelihood, will remain as such for the coming week as well. moving is taking a lot out of me, especially since the mercury has barely dipped below 85F. i'm getting a couple loads per day over to the storage unit. rid myself of nearly 12 bins of recyclings, 5 loads of garbage and 4 bags of clothing (donated).
over 600 books have been scanned into a home library maintenance software suite. those have all been methodically boxed and moved into storage as well. monday, a buddy is coming over w/ a truck and we're moving most of the remaining larger items. then i'll finish packing up the remainder of the smaller items and start on packing up the bathroom (1box worth of stuff, max) and the kitchen (less than 1/2 a day to pack) and, hopefully, have most of the day tuesday and all day weds --> fri to clean the apt sufficiently to get back most of my security deposit.
so, things are progressing on the moving front, but lets stop to take stock of the situation.
- virtually all that i own is being boxed and "shelved" into a storage unit.
- i still haven't been on a date since feb or early mar.
- when i'm not slammed with packing and have time to relax, i realize how horribly depressed i am.
- my life is in such disarray, i need to move into a guest bedroom @ a buddy's (w/ him & his fiancé).
- still no money.
- $100,000 in student loan debt.
- still no job.
- really depressed.
- utter dejected and broken.
there's nothing about dogs in this post, but it was the only thing that popped into my head for post 101.
coming into crunch time here. the next 19 days aren't going to be good or relaxed. i broke out some project management software to chart out the next week and what needs to be done as far as "deliverables" go to keep this move on track.
my entire apartment needs to be packed, the majority of it placed into storage, certain items lent to an ex (and certain ones that were borrowed - returned) and a small number of items moved to a buddy's place where i'll be crashing for a few months. utilities need to be disconnected, address changed, items cataloged and the apartment fully cleaned.
some items need to be prepared for storage as well...
the storage unit and p.o. box should make the coming year marginally easier. if necessary, i can move multiple times without needing to change everything over.
i need to find a job - but, major issue. this move is going to take ALL of the remainder of this month - ergo, the job search must be tabled (more or less).
*sigh* shit just keeps mounting.
i have to do some calculations on monthly expenditures as well.
need to get more knitting done as well - for sale, of course - the issue of "when?" is going to be a tough one to answer though.
on the bright side, i just might end up too busy to notice just how lonely i am and how long it's been since i've talked to a new girl or been on a legit date.
i wish i could tell you guys that my 100th post is going to be deep, profound & insightful - but, alas, i cannot do so.
instead, i'm going to tell you that it's 0530 on a monday morning. i'm still in mourning / depression over my inability to find a job and inevitable move in w/ a friend. drinking a quality heiferwiezen (elevator brewing co from ohio) wondering why i drink unfiltered beers (i think it sat a little too long... we'll see if it tastes okay or if i'm going to have to rummage through the refrigerator again).
i think i need to go fetch something different... shame. i like the heiferwiezens. think i'm out anyhow, so time to buy a new case.
stand by - i'll brb.
going w/ a schlitz american style lager. light, easy drinking. not a ton of flavor, but good for this warm part of the year.
anyhow, this was a banner weekend...
i messaged #1, princess, a^4, the cute artsy munchkin (see post 60 for the intro to both of those last 2), munckin & the german this weekend. AND there were a few women on a couple of internet sites that received messages this weekend as well. in the realm of "not bad" i didn't message athena, snowflake, pikachu OR the bi girl. take the little victories as they come.
shut up. fuck you... some of us are getting a touch lonely.
did a bit of working through my RPG character. inventory tetris on their backpack. good times...
what else? i skipped the CON that was this weekend. and the arts festival. and virtually everything else that required being awake.
oh, yeah... i was turned down by yet another trucking company as well. i don't have sufficient experience (despite 13yrs as a professional driver). that's also, apparently, a thing.
i recycled a ton of stuff so that i won't have to pack and move it. more of that going on this week as well.
otherwise - there's nothing worth talking about in my life. just a bunch of lamesauce mcnuggets.
