pissed - post 117

every now and then, you get that feeling.  you can't explain it.  you're not 100% sure what triggered it.  but, it's real.  you realize that you're pissed at the world and everything in it.  every single little thing is just something else that's going to set you off.  you can't focus on anything, and when you try to, your rage just rises because you don't have an outlet and it just keeps building as you're trying to ignore it and wish it away trying to distract yourself.  but it doesn't work.  nothing works.  you want to break something.  but even that won't be enough.  so much frustration that can't be abated.  you know that you're not going to sleep - but you're not going to be productive and accomplish anything either.  so the feeling keeps feeding on itself in this vicious fucked up cyclical pattern.  that feeling....  it's not going to go away.