it has to get better, right? - post 128

i cannot remember the last time something has gone right for me.

this past week i was rejected from another job i interviewed for (one of my best shots in, at least, 2yrs), nearly wrecked my car on the way home from work after our supervisor told us he wouldn't get us hotel rooms for the night (after telling us that he would in the event of a large snow event so we didn't have to drive in unsafe conditions at 0400), had a miserable trip 'home' to clean stuff out of my mother's place since she's moving next month, nearly wrecked on the way home because i couldn't leave when i wanted to and there were incredibly heavy rains and tons of ponding on the interstate, came back to find that we'd not have a functional shower for more than a week ---- and that's just the major shit from the past week.

met a friend for tea tonight and she made the mistake of asking what's been going on when i said things have just been miserable.  she stopped me to say that i was being too negative.  i replied that i spent the entire drive over trying to think of something good that's happened and i was completely blank.

i'm going to be laid off from my current job on the 29th.  i've managed to save a little bit and have a small cushion - but i really need something here soon.  

something has to break soon so that i can pretend to have a life worth living...